Lets catch up on the past few days shall we:
Tuesday: Me and Lizzie went job hunting. We went to Stumpo's in Margate but ran into some "training only" difficulites lol. After that we met up with Jeremiah and Lil' Jay at Dicks, they were picking out football stuff. After that me and Liz went to Chuckie Cheese and applied there. We went back to her house, got changed, and met up with Jeremiah and Lil' Jay again, then we all went to go play ball at Tremont. While we were there my mom called and wanted me to come home so they all came over. We played some games lol. Then we went outside to play ball but it started to rain real hard so we went inside and chilled in my room for a little and took a nap...cuddle buddies!, and then they left and i took Liz home.
Wednesday: This was a real bad day. My mom was being such a bitch for no reason and other than picking my grandma up from the airport she made me stay home all day :(.
Thursday: Me and Jessica went to the beach. We were there for a little but got bord real quick so we left. We went to KFC and got madd food, then made a stop at Eckerd. We got hair dye and other things. We went back to her house and decided that we really wanted the lotion and face wash lol so we went to another Eckerds to get it lol. Now were all stocked up! I took Jessica back home and then went to tumbling with Liz and Amanda. I did back walk-overs and back hand-springs. It was really fun and i did pretty good, i just have to jump harder lol. We left and went back to Liz's. We were hungry so we went to AC Subs and saw a cute boy. I didnt get anything but Liz did so she ate and then atfter being on the run that night, the rest of the night we just chilled at her house and watched Along Came Polly, funny as hell!
Thats it for now so ill update about my weekend later.

[	Mood:	|	moody	]
[	Music:	|	Eminem- I Love You More	]

Its been quite some time since i updated so here it is:
Thursday: Me and Lizzie went to the mall, stopped at Jeremiahs to get my CD that he burned for me, and went to McDonalds to get ice-cream? lol. After we got our food we were driving and saw Joe Thomas riding his bike so we said hi as we drove along while he followed lol. I dropped Liz at work and went home real quick to change and to get ready for practice. It was extra hell bcuz i had to run 2 miles 2 times bcuz we half walked the first time! It was hard and crazy and tiring. After running we had normal practice and scrimmaged. If you mess up just shake it off...LMAO Becca! After practice i came home and talked to him. He invited me over but i told him that i just got back from playin' ball and i still had to pack for my dads so nah. I packed for my dads house and then left. When i got there i was beat so i fell right asleep.
Friday: Woke up and went to the Drag Races with my dad. We were there all day but it was fun.
Saturday: I had to wake up madd early cause we were going to the Races again. We were only there til about 6 but i got alot of color...maybe a little too much! When we got back to his house we went to go see my step-sister dance and then i went back to his house and got knocked out.
Sunday: Happy Fathers Day! Me and my dad and his friend went to the last day of the Races. We had VIP passes and were supposed to eat lunch with Kenny and Brandon Bernstein but we didnt cause we watched the finals instead. After it was over i went back to my dads house. I was supposed to leave and go chill with Elan for a little bit but i went out to dinner with my dad and step-mom; then i went home.
Monday: Today was my catching up on my sleep and chill day. I was so tired from the weekend that i just wanted to stay home and be lazy. Me and my mom watched Love Dont Cost A Thing, i liked it. I talked to Big 4 for a little bit and now Im about to go to bed. Wonder whats up for tomorrow...

º The more you put me through,
º The more it makes me wanna come back to you,
º You say you hate me, I just love you more,
º You dont want me, I just want you more...
º ...I know its sad but its makin' me happy...

[	Mood:	|	refreshed	]
[	Music:	|	Jadakiss feat. Mariah Carey- You Make Me Wanna	]

Ok so Monday i did end up smoking. I called Teal to she what she was doing. We ended up chillin for a little bit...Our coke can lol. After chillin with her i came home and went to sleep, I was tired.
Tuesday i woke up bcuz my phone was ringing; it was Tracy. He had a half day and wanted to chill but i was too tired to get up so i said I'd call him back (I never called back, sorry). So i went back to sleep and my phone rings again. I answered and didnt know who it was. When i knew who it was i was in an unexplainable mood. It was this boy that i met a very long time ago and he is still tryna chill how many months later lol! He was like, "Im down here do you wanna chill?" I was like, "No, Im sleeping ill call you later," and i hung up lol. So i got up and showered and stuff and then Jessica calls me from school. She told me to go over when she gets home. I went to her house and we stopped by Ryan's to say hi. He gave me his chips and a dollar lol. We left Ryan's and met up with this kid Mike and smoked. After that we ate and parked the car lol. Then we stopped by Beau's house and he told us some stories, then i took her home. I went to Jeremiah's cause i had to give him a CD and i made a pinky promise with him and Lil' Jay but i dont know how long Im gonna be able to keep it for but ill try. I left his house and then came home, watched tv, and went to sleep. Michael Im not in a bad mood anymore lol!
I had to wake up early this morning cause i had a dentist appointment and i just got back. I dont know what Im gonna do today. Its not that nice out but maybe ill find something to do.

[	Mood:	|	hungry	]
[	Music:	|	Ray J + B2K feat. Missy Elliot- Shake That	]

Yesterday i watched this Harry Potter special and it made me want to go see the third movie even more then before. I definatly have to see that movie so if you want to see it with me let me know.
My brother stayed home from school today so we watched a movie: Spy Kids 3D. That movie was so pointless and dumb. I didnt like it but i watched it with him cause he liked it. He just left to go to his friends house so now Im home by myself. I really need to get a job, Im gonna start looking around. Michael was supposed to burn me some CDs last night. I am supposed to go pick them up in a little bit but i doubt he even burned them cause hes so lazy. I was supposed to go to Wildwood today but Im not going anymore i dont think. I really wanted to go but if i dont its whatever. So yeah thats it for now. I really want to smoke today, so maybe later i will but we'll see.

[	Mood:	|	hot	]
[	Music:	|	Alicia Keys- Diary	]

Short summary of today: Me and Jessica went tanning. I came home showered and got dressed and went to the sports banquet at my school; it was alright but then i got bord so J-Mia, Lil' Jay, and Jordan stopped by to say hi to me. We took pictures and then they left and i went back inside to the banquet. I came home afterwards and talked to him. He asked me to come over. Normally i would have been excited and would have went, but i wasnt excited at all and didnt feel like going over...weird right? Pierre also invited me over to chill but i didnt feel like going out. Jeremiah called me so i made Macaroni and Cheese and talked to him. We had to work out some situations lol...i knew it was you! After we got off the phone K.Michael called me. I was so surprised cause we havent been talking that much lately. At first i was real pisst at him but then after i got all my anger out it was a good conversation. We watched the game while we catched up on some things and i told him what was on my mind. I talked about him alot...thanks for listening lol. You better burn me those CDs for tomorrow, haha!

*Just to know what you are feeling...
*I wont tell your secrets, your secrets are safe with me...

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So my boring life left off on Thursday. Thursday i cleaned my room and did all my laundry, how exciting! I decided to go to practice since i had nothing else to do.We started off by running 3 miles...holy shit i was dieing and only ran half of it and walked the rest (Im lazy). The rest of practice wasnt that bad. My muscles are a little sore though. Friday i chilled at home and then went to Lizzie's. She came shopping with me and i got 2 skirts then we got something to eat and went back to her house. We called Danielle and she told us to come over. We got there and April was there, i havent seen her in so long. We chilled for a little and he called Danielle. I got to talk to him but it only made me sad :(...fuck him. We were gonna smoke but then decided to go to Carlos's instead. He taught me how to use a switchboard and i got to mix songs while Danielle rapped lol. It was funny as hell. Then April got on the mic, "Carlos party of 4?" LMAO. Shes funny as hell and Im glad that we chilled. I wanted to go to Nick's so we left and i took April and Danielle to Laura's and i took Liz home. I called Jessica to see if she was still at Nick's but she was about to leave so i just went home. Today (Saturday) was another day to add to the boring list. Me, April, and Danielle were all supposed to hang out but we didnt. Liz and Brittney invited me to go out to eat with them. I really didnt want to go but since i wasnt doing anything else i said i would. I got ready and left but while i was driving i decided i really didnt want to go so i went home instead. When i got home Jessica called me and she was texting. She was sad so we went out. We drove around and went on some missions lol. We got McDonalds and then parked and ate. Then we were gonna meet up with Nick but we ended up not...? We drove around some more...Your not on our level lol...we were blasting the music lol. I took her home and then came home. Life is too boring right now and it sucks like crazy. Something fun better happen tomorrow or else Im gonna go crazy. I guess Im gonna go to bed now, sweetdreamz everyone.

[	Mood:	|	exhausted	]
[	Music:	|	Slum Village feat. Kanye West- Selfish	]

Things didnt work out on Tuesday like they were planned. I was supposed to hang out with Dana and Monica in Iladelphia but it didnt happen...i saw that coming lol. Instead i stayed home all by myself until about 4:30. Thats when my mom came home and thats when all the bullshit started. We got into the biggest fight about school for next year. Then she had to bring other shit into it and i couldnt take it anymore, i broke down and cried :(. I left and went to Lizzie's. We talked for a little bit and then went to A.C. Moore to get posterboard. While we were there we saw Brandon working, "Dont make any false movements! --You mean sudden movements?--" lol. We talked to him for a little then left and went to BK to get something to eat real quick. We went back to Lizzie's and ate then we went in her room and worked on her project. It was getting late so i left. I came home and told K.Michael all the bullshit i was hearing (Listen bitch stop talking shit) and then went to sleep.
Today was a beach day! I woke up at 9:00 this morning and called Jessica to wake her up. I got ready and picked her and then Nick up. We stopped at WaWa, when i accidently took the wrong sandwhich lol, and then went to the Ocean City beach. At first it was cloudy but then it cleared up and it was hott and sunny. We went in the water, ate ice-cream (thanks Nick) and layed out. Then Ryan came. We layed out and went in the water some more, ate pizza, and then left. Me and Jessica went to Nick's to go swimming and then we all went to Old Navy and the mall. We got a few things and Nick got his ears pierced, it looked good. After that we left the mall and i took them home. I was supposed to go to Beau's but i didnt bcuz i took to long so him, Lil' Jay, and J-Mia went to play ball. I came home and Tanya called me and said that i should go to practice tomorrow but ill see if Im up for it or not. Tomorrow my mom is enrolling me at EHTHS, hmmm. Im tired as hell and my face is a little pink but it'll be alright lol. Imma talk to K.Michael and then off to bed!

Even though my night ended extra early, Im definatly chillin' right now. Earlier i went to Jessica's and we watched the prom video; it was real long. It looked fun there and i wish i coulda went but theres always next year. When it was over we just chilled and ate chicken lol. I left and went to Pierre's. We smoked and chilled for a little bit. Haha, the spary and the private phone call, lol i was too paranoid! I left his house and went to Lizzie's. We chilled for a while and then we left to go get ice-cream...yummy! She got this bangin Fudge-Shop Cookie blizard, it was so good. I took her home and then i came home. K. Michael called me and we talked for a while; He still never burned me my Young Gunz lol. I was online again and he asked me if i wanted to go over and watch a movie with him. I told him no becuz Im taking SATs tomorrow morning and i have to get up real early...maybe another time :). Hopefully i do better on these SATs then the last one i took. *Yeah maybe Im selfish, I want you to myself i cant help it*

[	Mood:	|	bouncy	]
[	Music:	|	Fat Joe feat. Remy- Lean Back	]

So yesterday (Friday) i went to school and had to take my Physics final. It wasnt that hard and i think i did pretty good. I got to sit behind crush and we talked a little after the test. I had no more finals so Me, Dana, and Monica went to drop Dana off at Spencers and then we left. I met my mom at the mall and we shopped a little, then i came home and took a short nap. Lizzie called me and woke me up. We talked for a while and then i went over her house. We ate some buffalo chicken tenders (our favorite lol) and then got ready. Jessica, Amanda, Brett, and Justin stopped by real quick so i "could meet them." After that Me, Lizzie, her sister, and Jessica D went to this party. We got there and i was not having fun. I did not want to dance or be there. After a while more people came (i got to see K.Michael, i missed him!) and it got better. I started to dance but i still wasnt really feelin' it that much. It was alright though. After that i came home and talked to Liz for madd long about him. Ugh, that shit makes me so sad :(. This morning i had to return Honey and Im sad cause i love that movie...No more watching it 2 times a day lol. I came home and went online and talked to my friend; I tried fixing the situation but he said hes not ready yet, your stubborn. I also got to talk to him...that always makes my day :). Im about to go to Jessica's for a little bit and watch the prom video then i dont know what Im doin' after that. Maybe smoke or chill with him, who knows...ill update!

[	Mood:	|	frustrated	]
[	Music:	|	Wayne Wonder- Bounce Along	]

First a recap: Monday was my chill day bcuz i was so tired. Tuesday i had to go to school for a half a day bcuz of finals, I didnt have one in the morning but in the afternoon i did. Wednesday was the same thing. Went to school for finals; I had a Manos final and we did pretty good lol. After that i took Dana to the train station and then went home. Today i didnt have any finals so Im staying home and maybe going tanning later.
And Here It Goes: I hate to admit this but i got played out. I found out that this boy likes someone else and is trying to be with her. I guess thats why hes been acting shady and hasnt been the same. The only reason that Im upset about it is bcuz he told me that things were gonna be back to normal but how could they be if your trying to be with someone? And to make it worse, the weekend went great and i should be happy and excited and content but Im not. I dont know what is wrong with me and why Im not happy but Im just sad about it. I had a long talk with an old friend last night about love. It made me think of things and relize certain things. Hes right though, even if it hurts you have to relize the truth cause thats whats gonna get you through it. But fuck boys...Im done with the bullshit!

[	Mood:	|	anxious	]
[	Music:	|	T.I.- Lets Get Away	]

The week started off pretty good for the first time in a long time. Yesterday was Monday and school wasnt bad. It was the last day of classes and the last full day until next year...its all coming to an end. Since it was almost the last day of school i decided that it would be good if i talked to crush and make sure that we were cool. We talked and i think it went pretty good, we'll prolly be back to being normal again, which is a good thing. After lunch i had to take Sam somewhere, then we came back to school. I got tutored then went home and wrote my last paper that i had to do...Finally Im done! Today (Tuesday) went good too. I woke up and packed a bag for the beach then went to school. When i got there crush said hi to me, which made me feel like it was back to normal. At 11:30 school was over and i was supposed to go to the beach but instead Dana and Monica came over real quick to see my house. When they left me and my brother watched a movie and then i took a nap. When i woke up i got a phone call from him. We talked for a little about why i never came over and showed him how to work his phone lol. "If i skip school tomorrow will you come and get me early...What time you wake up at? --I dont know, prolly like 11.-- Aww hell no! Thats too late!" LOL i love him. I told him that after school he should call me if he wants to chill so well see what happens with that! Friday After Next is about to be on so imma go watch it...holla

[	Mood:	|	good	]
[	Music:	|	Slow Motion- Juvenile feat. Soulja Slim	]

Wednesday: School sucked.
Thursday: School sucked.
Friday: School sucked even more. I think that me and crush are done bcuz we barley talk anymore and nothing has been going on :(. After school sucked too. I came home, took a nap, talked to Kevin real quick, then went to Lizzie's. Me and Lizzie went to the mall so i could get a new belly ring; Its pink and i like it alot. After the mall we drove around and then went back to her house. We watched the game and chilled. Then i went home.
Saturday: Me and Jessica were going to go to the Cherryhill Mall but we decided to go to the beach instead. We layed out for a while, took a long walk, layed out some more, and then we got real hott and left. We got a little bit of color but not much. We went to WaWa and got our favorite smoked turkey BLT sub and some double dutch chocolate milk. We were so hungry and it was so good. I stopped at Lizzie's to get my money and then we went to get gas. The guy was hitting on us and he was like 28...ew! We went to Macys to get some underwear. We got so much and there real cute. Then we went to go get more gas at Super WaWa so Jessica could see her friend. He wasnt there so we got gas and i took her home. When i got home i showered and passed out. I didnt wake up for a while and when i did i didnt feel like going out so i just chilled at home and watched a movie, talked to Jeremiah, and then went to sleep.
Sunday (Today): I woke up real early and went to pick Jessica up from Carolines. After waiting for like a hour lol, we went to the beach again. We made a stop at WaWa and got a tuna BLT sub, string cheese, and chocolate milk. After that we went to the beach. We looked at pictures and then layed out. We got bord so we took a walk and played a game: Apple, Bananna, Carrots, Dog, Elephant, Ferret, Gorilla, Hog, Ice-Cream, Jog, Khamal, Liz, Money, Nappy, Osvai, Papi, Queen, Rasheen, Strawberries, Tequilla, Umbrella, Venus, White, Xzylaphone, Yellow, Zipper...haha. Then we went in the water and we surfed! It was so much fun excpet the part when our bathing suits got messed up lol. We layed out a little more and took another walk and then we left and went to Starbucks. Danielle was working and she hooked us up! We left and went to Eckerds. We got some face washes and some other things. I took Jessica home and then came home, showered, and now i am going to type my final for Psychology...Not fun.

[	Mood:	|	depressed	]
[	Music:	|	Allure feat. 112- All Cried Out	]

I just got done watching the last episode of Making The Band II and damn what a disappointment to me bcuz I loved them so much. Anywayz too much other shit on my mind. I just found out some wack shit. Damn Kev, why couldnt you tell me any of this. I thought that we were cool as hell and it seems like you totally blew me off. I wish I could just talk to you and let it all out, but your not even there for me anymore. I never thought that it would come down to that and i thought that you would always be there for me but your not and you havent been for a while. I guess i was just to blind to see it bcuz i didnt want to. Reality Check for me i guess. My life just keeps getting worse by the day and nothing goes right anymore. Will someone please tell me what do to cause i cant take this anymore...